Evenin’

      Even though I have worked off the damn ol’ Monday I felt Tuesday to be lethargic. Not all but this one has that weirdness of silence before a storm or it may be just my imagination. It feels good when things are calm for nothing is on the head or stuck in the teeth. No work today I guess. At least there is no satirizing show of thoughts prevalent on the idle mind. I can’t become numb to superficial senses that crawl onto me while I’m not busy. Beverages, Water, Cigarettes, Jokes, Wallpapers… I wish I was home alone and daydreaming it would be like lone duck in a pond with fish all around. Loners like the one in the mirror can be fun only when in non-exasperation. Results of my needs are goin’ to be revealed soon, I hope they have been scrutinized for emotions.
      Funny thing about pleasure, it helps perturb the mind after it has ceased. The fortunate ones attain having it forever. I came across that a teenage jackass strangled himself to death to gain more pleasure from jerking off. And more sardonically his mother was relieved when the judge ruled it as an accident, not self-destruction, hence all the insurance money went to her.
       Sometimes it is better off when you stay away from being good or doing good like they say ‘Don’t do anything great if you cannot handle the congratulations’. So what if I cannot be good by nature, I am mastering the act of portraying myself as a nice guy. But if there were no rules would everyone be Jack the Ripper?